certainproclivity: (I'm like a headtrip to listen to.)
Somewhere in the catacombs of some European church in a city that Sark can't bother to remember the name of, because it's the fifteenth one in fewer days, Irina Derevko bleeds out on the cold, wet stone, while the rats that lurk in the shadows skitter absently about, waiting on a moment to strike. It's an unceremonious end for a woman like her, but she's made several spectacular ones in the last two weeks- she can afford an undignified one.

"I can't imagine what this must feel like," he murmurs, checking the clip in his gun. There's one bullet left.

That's all he needs.

"My own student shooting me in the head," Irina responds, her voice echoing oddly against the stone walls. If he hadn't been through this so many times before, it might have bothered him. It did, at first, but not anymore. It's like learning how to kill all over again- you don't want to pull the trigger, but you do it anyway, and the more you do it, the easier it gets, until you feel nothing. "It feels like I've trained you well."

He snaps the clip back into place, staring down at her with an expression that isn't quite anything at all, save utterly merciless. "That's a better answer than the others gave."

The rats skitter away at the sound of the gunshot.

Don't fret, precious, I'm here... )
certainproclivity: (Kiss)
Written for [profile] sighofthings , with the prompt "Love me, because love doesn't exist, and I have tried everything that does." I DID NOT WRITE SOMETHING VAGUELY SIMILAR TO THIS A MONTH AGO. YOU KNOW LIES.

Allison didn't love him.

She had words for it and love wasn't one of them, but they were both young and naive and it didn't really matter what it was called, just that they felt it. It was affectionate and rough and passionate and the sort of thing that made them both feel simultaneously older and wiser than their years and a lot like the kids they never were.

They kept it a secret, because they knew Irina wouldn't approve, but that just made it better, somehow. That feeling of rebellion, that taste of the forbidden. It always felt more intense to him than it did Allison, but she wasn't programmed nearly as delicately as he had been- the slightest hint of disapproval from Irina scared the hell out of him. It never stopped him though. This much was his and he intended to keep it for as long as he could. Maybe it was all just a game to her, but it was real to him.

It was real enough that he chose her over Irina and they both paid for it.




Muse: Julian Sark
Word Count: 605

certainproclivity: (*Sydney- here by my side an angel)
[profile] sunday_reveries : A man takes his sadness and throws it away but then he’s still left with his hands.
-Richard Siken


He doesn't care about her.

She's a way out, a means to an end. He can't handle being stuck at school forever without knowing where the hell he might go afterward, working on sheer blind ambition and no actual directive. He doesn't believe her promises and he certainly doesn't trust her.

He won't stay with her. He'll run as soon as he gets the chance.

~*~

This is how I keep my sanity. This is what I need you to believe. )

Muse: Julian Sark
Word Count: 397


certainproclivity: (Bambi eyes of death)
[livejournal.com profile] sunday_reveries : "All the world will be your enemy, Prince With A Thousand Enemies. If they catch you, they will kill you... But first they must catch you."

"You're going to Stockholm."


How many times had he stood in front of her, awaiting orders, knowing that no matter what she asked of him, he'd do it without question? If she had told him to cut his own heart out, he would have gladly done it, but when it came down to his orders or Allison, he had chosen the woman he loved over the woman he served, and while it had worked in their favor, in the long run, he knew that his disobeying would cost him when Irina could find the time in her scheming to find an appropriate punishment. She'd never once let him get away with anything in the nine years he worked for her- this would be no different.

"You'll be meeting my contact."

She seemed so cool and confident, like this was an ordinary meeting, but there was a hard edge to her eyes and she looked more tired than anything. It was the look of a woman reaching an endgame that wasn't the one she'd been heading towards. He longed to question what changed and whether or not it was his fault, but he knew the truth and hearing that it was his fault would have been much more bearable than that. It wasn't just a punishment, it was a sentence. It was a game of choice and she wasn't planning on choosing him.

"Sydney will be there."

He held his breath and bit his tongue.

..... )

Muse:
Julian Sark
Word Count: 664
certainproclivity: (You're society's child)
[community profile] justprompts : Wrapped Around Your Finger by The Police
 

The school's conservatory is almost like a graveyard after hours. Empty seats all lined up in neat little rows like headstones in the darkness and even with the house lights on, everything just seems lonely and dead. Some people find beauty in empty theaters- Julian's pretty sure he's not one of them. Still, practicing during school hours just means he has to deal with the fact that there are so many other children better than him and being constantly reminded that there's something out there that he's not the absolute best at drives him crazy. Better to practice in the haunting, lifeless theater than under the scrutiny and mocking jeers of his classmates.

Ages ago, he learned the ignoble art of sneaking out of the dormitories and how to pick the locks on the conservatory doors and if the school's staff has any idea what he's been up to, they keep that information to themselves, but it's not like he gives them any indication he was ever there and the cleaning staff, even they ever bother with the conservatory after midnight, are probably superstitious enough to think the mysterious piano playing to be caused by errant spirits.

On go the houselights, up he vanishes into the light booth to get the stage lights, and then he walks down the path between the rows of empty seats, stepping lightly as if he were well and truly tiptoeing in a graveyard after midnight, up the stairs, and then onto the stage where the school's piano lies in wait, taunting him. He slides himself onto the bench, lifts the lid, and runs his fingers across the ivory. He's memorized every damn note down to the letter and yet applying himself to the task of playing a song just gives him a basic, simple sound- nothing pretty, nothing particularly noteworthy at all. The spark of creativity isn't there- he's too left-brained. Every one of his teachers has an excuse for why he can't do it.

That simply isn't good enough.

 

I have only come here seeking knowledge- things they would never teach me of in college. )

Muse: Julian Sark
Word Count: 1690

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